Stephanie Marie (akaGabbie) here.
More about that in a moment.
It’s been a while, actually a long while. I hope everyone has been able to find some joy and sunshine these past summer months. I have been very fortunate to travel to see family and friends that I have missed more than words can express. Gratitude + Tears + Hugs
I have been asked several times lately … What have you been up to lately? Are you working? The short answer … A LOT AND YES.
I would love to know what you have been up to … leave a comment, send me an email, check-in with me! I would love to hear how you have been and what you have been up to lately! Time for you to check-in.
For several months I have been working hard in growing my dream business, refinements are almost complete and I am getting really excited to be able to share with all of you soon what I have been working on.
For years I have always had a side hustle while holding down what people call a “real job.” Like being an entrepreneur is not a real job. (eye roll) Working for yourself or helping others achieve their dream business is not a real job. Seriously?!? (don’t make me swear) I think this is a topic for another email.
Anyway, I will be authentic and say some days growing this business has been easier than others. I LOVE what I do, I love helping others work towards their dream business. I love tech, most days, but most of all I love helping others and creating.
I am working on some pretty amazing things so that I can help more people achieve their dreams. I am excited to share with everyone, soon, coming soon…
However, as much as I love what I do, today I had to take a step back as I was struggling to stay focused and if I am being honest, I have been struggling these last few days checking the boxes off the to-do list. Everything seems harder than it should be, then I remembered, It’s August.
So what did I decide to do? Write a message to reconnect with the people in my life … family, people I consider family, friends, mentors, people I have had the privilege of having in my life at some point, and the new people that I am connecting with. I am a firm believer that we connect with people for a reason, sometimes we never know that reason, but there is always a reason. If you are reading this message, I consider that our relationship, past, present, or future, is for good reason.
Normally (because I am a little stubborn), I would keep pushing to fight the lack of focus and procrastination. Today, I decided to embrace it and reflect, reconnect, recommit, and embrace the why. What is the why behind the struggle? It’s August.
Some will say it is a mindset that I need to overcome. Others will say that it’s a mental block. Well, it probably is that, and more, the more is grief. Yep, grief.
The month of August has been hard since August 22, 1996, that is when I lost my brother, Daniel. August became even harder two years ago, August 5, 2019, when I lost my dear sweet grandson, Archer Daniel. People close to me know exactly what I mean when they ask me how I am doing and I say “It’s August.” There isn’t a day that goes by that I don’t think of them both. Saying I miss them is an understatement. It doesn’t get easier, the grief becomes different, life becomes different. Now that I think about it, there have been several other losses, not deaths, but traumatic losses in my life that have occurred in August. When you lose people that you love for whatever reason life becomes different, the grief never goes away. Grief changes things. At least for me, it has changed the way I look at life, situations, and things. I feel like I react differently to so many “things”. Life is different.
This August, let’s be honest, today, I decided to embrace the feelings more than usual, stop resisting by embracing the memories so that I can focus and achieve the great things I have been left on this earth to achieve in my lifetime. I know there is a grieving cycle, I think that is what it is called, I don’t think that the cycle happens once, I think it is an ongoing cycle that never stops, some cycles lasting longer than others. (side note, it probably doesn’t help that Adele is playing in the background … I love Adele, after writing this it might be time to listen to some P!NK or Blondie, just saying.)
By embracing and acknowledging It’s August, it empowers me and hopefully by sharing my thoughts empowers others to acknowledge, remember, embrace, and take care of yourself first so you can take care of your world, not the entire world but your world. My daughter MandieLee says, “It’s okay not to be okay.” Her strength gives me strength.
Thank you for letting me “check-in” and share It’s August.
Great things are coming soon, well … September.
Hugs and love …
P.S. Don’t forget to COMMENT or send me an email, CHECK-IN, I would love to hear about your world! What have you been up to? Are you working? LOL